My Love For You Dear

I feel me sinking deep into the quicksand,

I wish you were here to hold my hand,

I can't think of the knee deep doom,

I can't think of my approaching tomb,

All I can think of is what got me here,

And it is my love for you dear.

We were fourteen when we first met,

You and I belonged in our own separate set,

Unbeknownst to me,the sentence had been proclaimed,

And it was decided what would be my fate,

All I could think about was giving you my heart,

All because of my love for you dear.

Some days,I'd be madly in love with you,

Some days,I'd ask myself,"Is this true?",

I was like two separate beings,

Both wanting two different things,

But I ignored my other half,

All because of my love for you dear.

Writing and reading was a great passion,

But I let them go,to be in your fashion,

So that I could be closer,

So that I could keep you happy and hold you near,

I threw my other half's love away,

All because of my love for you dear.

Alienated by half my mind,

Facing rivalry from another of my kind,

Success was unsure,failure was imminent,

But you beautiful visage kept me persistent,

I risked losing everything,

All because of my love for you dear.

Every living day was hell,

Dreams crumbled as trees fell,

Then you came and said "Yes",

As bliss overcame,God Bless,

It made the pain worthwhile,

All because of my love for you dear.

As days moved forward,the harsh realisation hit,

I would never be as special as him,or an equal fit,

Our relationship was strained,

My other half knew a little was feigned,

It was something I ignored,

All because of my love for you dear.

It was a dream I was living in,

A dream ending in my sin,

Breaking your heart and shattering it to pieces,

Never stopping to pick up my own heart's little pieces,

I sat broken,pained and patient,

All because of my love for you dear.

Years later,I realised the truth in your "I'd Go",

My other half loved saying "I told you so",

I jolted awake from my dream,

Life had moved on while I was stuck,it seemed,

Below my feet,I found quicksand,

All because of my love for you.

It was the half life I was satisfied with,

Half your affection,half my mind's love,

Half my mind's craving to be acknowledged its worth,

The other half crying that its dreams were lost,

Now the sand waist deep,

I know there is no escape,

So I close my eyes and imagine,

You coming and holding my hand,

And me telling my other half its favourite line,

As I let you take my soul away,

I close my eyes and die,

Long before the sand swallows my shadow,

All because of my love for you dear....